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(a shot from cavite naval hospital)

A columnist once quoted a graduation speech of a PNPA graduate. He said “We rise together… and together we will remain strong for our motherland to serve, live and die for.”

This powerful phrase awoken something in me, something I have never thought before, something that I want to do and is still contemplating if I needed to do. When I was in college, we have this subject called nursing elective. You choose a field of nursing, apply there and wait if you can be assigned there. Oftentimes, it is our favorite area where we specialized and spend gruesome yet worth it time. I chose emergency nursing, I like the thrill, the activity, the new faces that come and go, the procedures and everything about it. But right now, I realized, how come I did not consider myself as a military nurse? How often do I think of being in the field and imagining myself running when someone shouts “MEDIC”. ALWAYS!.. But what if I be in a military hospital? Would I still be useful and would I still enjoy?

“We knew we were no longer sons and daughters of our parents but sons and daughters of our motherland.” I am never patriotic or nationalistic. I am always practical and tends to be influenced. Would I consider turning my back from my parents and be the son of our motherland instead? Why not.

As I type this article there are numerous things that I’m considering. My plans of greener pasture to the land of milk and honey, my plans of going down under and my plans of working in Middle East would all be set aside. But come what may, I need to be a STAFF NURSE right now.haha

1. Anong size ng gloves mo?
> >> 7.5 para masikip..8 pag hindi
> 2. First ward na pinagdutihan mo?
> >> umc 1400
> 3. First case mo sa OR?
> >> CS..my fave
> 4. Favorite nursing procedure mo?
> >> IV insertion..kakaadik
> 5. Pinakahate mong nursing procedure?
> >> V/S..I/O..enema!!
> 6. Sang procedure ka nahihirapan?
> >> diaper changing sa isang MI patient
> 7. Namatayan ka na ba ng patient?
> >> many times..
> 8. Nakapag post mortem care ka na ba?
> >> glad to say..not yet
> 9. Favorite area/ward mo?
> >> ER
> 10. Pinakahate mong area/ward?
> >> pcmc
> 11. Favorite CI mo?
> >> dami eh
> 12. Eh sino naman pinakaayaw mong CI?
> >> yung pinaiyak ko!haha
> 13.Bakit ka nga pala nag nursing?
> >> pre med sana..
> 14. Enjoy ka naman sa nursing?
> >> yup!!
> 15. Anong pinakaayaw mong school regulation para sa mga nursing students?
> >> bawal flipflops!
> 16. Maaga ka bang pumapasok?
> >> yupyup
> 17. Madalas ka ba sa library?
> >> nung thesis!
> 18. Favorite nursing subjects mo?
> >> MS/ana
> 19. Pinakahate mong nursing subjects?
> >> ms/ana haha..
> 20. May ibinagsak ka na bang subjects?
> >> nope!
> 21. Madalas ka bang umabsent?
> >> nope!
> 22. Kamusta naman ang capping at pinning ceremony mo?
> >> ayus lang..picture picture..
> 23. Ano ang favorite mong nursing diagnosis?
> >> hyperthermia..haha
> 24. Kung nakapag-affiliate ka na, sang hospital ka pinaka-nagenjoy?
> >> FAB
> 25. Bakit naman?
> >> daming cases!! daming toot!
> 26. SAN ANG FIRST COMMUNITY DUTY MO??
> MASAYA BA??
> >> imus...
> 27. Kung may classmate ka na gusto mong maging nurse, sino yun at bakit?
> >> bitches!!haha

when you decide on to something substantial, sacrifices are expected. when you go and leave something, it would be the start and end of something.

i finished my clearance last night, its officially the end. but sad to say i would miss all the people that had been a part of me, no need to mention them, but needless to say, every experience i had with them is worth remembering and i would sure treasure all of the things i heard and learned...

ill miss the chitchats between calls, the goofing around, the northgate walks, the updates from my friends, the sentiments and life of a call center agent.

ill miss TEAM GORGEOUS..

TIN AND ANJ

WAVE 28

MS PS XT WAVE 1

MY TL

MY TRAINERS

THE BOSSES

MY FRIENDS..

Finding the right person for a good relationship is like finding the right drug for a disease.

There is what we called first level antibiotics, the penicillin. When we meet someone and fell in love with him or her that is infatuation. At that very moment, you immediately thought that he or she is the right one for you. Carelessly, you give out all that you have for him or her without even thinking of who really that person is, but then eventually you realize that infatuation is dangerous and ineffective. Just like the penicillin, it is the first choice of most, simple colds and sore throats are treated by laymen with those without even thinking of the so called resistance and sensitivity. But what can you do, those are available over the counter and are just readily available without proper consultation. The person we thought is the right one has many flaws and is just superficially attractive. Again, superficial symptoms are dangerous and dangerous afterwards. We use them radically but after that, we don’t feel the cure or the spark analogously. So after the basic who, what and where, you hook up, then after that what
? Strangers! You develop this resistance to that person and a line is instantly drawn between seriousness to sex and that is the hard part, to cope up with unmet expectations and disappointment. You expect that you could be together more often, date often, catch a flick, grab some bite, sleep together, and later, the truth will bite you that penicillins won’t do any good at all and would just give you instant cure, short term basis as they say. We hold on to the thought that we are made for each other then you would find out that penicillins cure other acute symptoms as well. Jealousy. You get insecure, hurt and down hearted when you see that person entertain others when you expect and assumed that you shared some special feelings but after that unfaithful night or day you made out, the care and passion you shared beforehand was lost and like it did not exist. But that’s life. And then after timeless observation and examination you find out that some people are the right one for you. The one that we thought are not compatible with us, the one we thought are not fitted and we do not really pay attention initially would prove to be the best for us. After tests and clinical observations, we realize the best drug for us. It is a case to case basis actually. People may really look good with others, all are subjective but those may not be the real picture. It is just a piece of a high faluting puzzle of disease. So we knew that this certain drug would be good for us afterall. Some maybe expensive and some may have drastic side effects but in the end you are cured. In a relationship, these people are those far from our expectations and qualifications. We reject them for their superficial traits but when you see the effect, which is when you realize again the truth. Some may look for people opposite to them, set high standards and sometimes perfect combination for all but end up with those far from whom they want to be with. Another situation is for dying patients, you use the common emergency drugs. These drugs prove to be very effective in saving lives. We experience situations where we are so down, we feel it is the end of the world for us, like we have been cursed but then someone will save us from that. Lol. They try to lighten up our lives and bring happy thoughts. They show kindness and potential for a good relationship. They revive our dying hearts. They pump blood to our weak veins. They maintain what they have started. I am not really sure of this. It is what we call the rebound. You get hurt, someone comes in, then you get attached. Rebound they call it because we are still vulnerable in those times. But no matter what, superficial things should not be always considered. Yes, those are what we see at first, but to know the real thing or deal is what is more important. You have to look beyond what is seen by the naked eye. We should not be fooled by what is presented, not for their assets but on how they work with those. jta

for those who spent their new years eve outside home...i symphatize with you. it was my first time last night...but i came to think that even if i work as a nurse, i would also be spending these holidays in the bowels of my work..who else would sacrifice for their work???here are some...

-media men
-police forces
-call center people
-doctors/nurse/medical people
-24/7 retail store men
....who else??? who else???


its not bad after all...life is just like that...i never thought of this when i tok up nursing by the way...hahaha

this 2008,

i was a senior, i am 20, i am a de la salle graduate, a la sallian RN, a board passer, i was a cell center rep, i am resolutions expert, i am hired, i was a bum for 10 days....these are just some of the most significant events in my life this year....

but who will i be after 2008? who are you after 2008??

Once or twice or should I say oftentimes, we contemplate, we think and we ponder if we are happy on whatever is happening or doing at the moment. But what are we willing to pay for or do for in the pursuit of it?

Last week, me and anj, my supposedly “sugar prohibited” friend enjoyed ourselves with starbuck’s OH SO YUMMY OREO CHEESECAKE!..This is happiness I told myself.. every bite.. every bit of it is so delicious. It is like eating heaven. I know I’m over exaggerating but I’m such a lover of sweets especially cheesecakes. My favorites!! Filling your tummy with yummy food. Spoiling your tongue with things you crave for is the best.

To be with the one you love. To speak. To flirt. To laugh. To cry and to build things is nonetheless happiness as well. One can never explain how this works, how you can get attached, to feel that something that the world can only describe to the most as “LOVE”. Words are not enough I may say.